I have to decorate my room. Seriously, I have been back here in Ozark for nearly 4 months and people walk in my room and ask if anyone lives there. It is BLAH. So, to solve this problem I decided to decorate my walls with handmade kites. "How hard could it possibly be to make a kite?" I asked myself incredulously. So, this afternoon I began looking for building materials for my kites.
I have this special paper that I bought at Wal-Mart for $8.50. It was very hard for me to fork up that much cash for paper but it's very special paper. It's all different colors with fancy patterns and stickers and other fun accessories. I use this special paper very sparingly.
But today as I was contemplating the handmade kites for my wall I knew that it would only look good with my special paper. The question was...am I willing to risk it? This may sound very silly to you but to me it was a very big decision. I am really terrible at crafty things and statistically based on past projects the kites had about a 5% chance of looking good. Did I really want to break out my special paper for something that was probably going to fail?
Ironically, we talked about risk in DTS class today. The teacher, Michael Leeson, talked about how each person is designed by God and He gives us each gifts and callings. The question is are we willing to step into our gifts and callings and risk failing.
So, I decided to go for it. And you know what? They look terrible just as I predicted. But I'm so glad I went for it. And I'm going to keep trying until they look beautiful...even if it means using all of my special paper. I want to be who God created me to be and do what He made me to do...even if I fail at first. Try, try again.
